July 24, 2016

Sometimes you just sit and ponder life.

Your life. Not your life as it has already occurred, but your life as it is yet to be.

There are many questions, many musings, many wonderings, and a few absolutes.

Today I have been sifting through questions like, will I ever get married, raise a family, and grow old? Musings as to what life will be like with another person by my side, what he will look like, what his story is, how we will meet. Wonderings that cause me to ask what our story will be like and how he could ever love me.

And then there are those absolutes I mentioned. There is one absolute in particular which gives me hope in the midst of the ever changing questions that rattle around my mind. I find such peace in the security of absolute Truth; CHRIST.

He is my steadfast hope and reality.

I may not know the answers to the questions of my life, but I know that He has been, He is, and He will be with me all the way. I may not be able to fathom what the future holds, but I know the One who holds the future. I may always wonder how He could possibly love me, but I will always be sure of and secure in that love.

You see, my life is not my own; I didn’t write it into existence, I didn’t speak it into being, I didn’t will it into reality, and I certainly don’t hold the map to the rest of it, but I know who I belong to. The One who pledged Himself to me and declared me to be His beloved; the One who adopted me into His family and made me co-heir with the King of kings; the One who gave me eternal life; the One who has never left my side; the one whose face is too holy to look upon; the One who wrote an entire book to tell me about Himself; the One who introduced Himself to me by dying in my place and rising again to spend eternity with me; the One who relentlessly pursued me even to the edge of doom and loves me with a passion, zeal, and intensity that defy my finite understanding. That is the one I belong to- that is my reality.

So yes, my mortal future is shrouded in mystery, but I simply await the day when this mortal body, which is subject to the corruption of this life, is swallowed up by immortality because my future is cloudy in the middle, but the end is crystal clear- I will be with God forever.

Life…Its purpose is to know Him, to love Him, and to serve Him.

That’s something worth pondering.