Don’t Want to Waste My Life

Again, I want to express how grateful I am to all of you who are reading my newsletters and praying for me!

This week has been a blur, but also it has been the most I have ever learned, prayed, and read in a week’s worth of time. I have seen how the Lord is all together good and set apart, and how He has chosen us to be His messengers and watchmen (Ezekiel 33) of the Gospel of Christ Jesus. Now, my natural response to this is that I am not worthy or equipped enough to be a messenger and disciple of the maker of the cosmos. Here is a verse that has spoken to me about this reality, “Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God, who also made us adequate as servants of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life” 2 Corinthians 3:5-6.

With this truth I now know why Jesus said to Peter and every disciple of his, “And I will give you the keys to the kingdom of heaven.” I don’t want to waste my life living for my own desires. The psalmist said in psalm 90, “So teach us to number our days, that we may present to you a heart of wisdom.” I’m learning to surrender my heart everyday and applying that to where the Lord is going to call me. One missionary in our class said to not push yourself into things but be pulled into them.

This week was not only a lot of praying and learning but also outreach! We had 3 different outreaches. Going to the local dump where people live and ministering to them, event at the park with activity for kids, and a Saturday night church event with a movie.

It was sobering seeing the living situations of the people we met, conversed with, and prayed over. It really puts in prospective how rich and blessed I am in America. I had the opportunity to pray for a guy who gave his life to the Lord that same day after a message one of our pastor’s shared! After the time at the dump a leader told us that he was formerly a leader in the satanic cult they had near the dump. How amazing is that! Our God is a God of salvation and restoration!

I was able to share to the kids through a translator on our team, it was a bit different but awesome to share the good news in a different country to these little kids!

For The Kingdom of God, Christian Brown