II Chronicles 15:2
“The LORD is with you while you are with Him. If you seek Him, He will be found by you; but if you forsake Him, He will forsake you.”
Our Father is always ready and waiting for us to turn to Him, just as we see Him pictured in the story of the prodigal son. But He will not impose Himself on us if we either don’t want Him, or we He’s not important enough to us for us to make time for Him.
Jesus comments on this principle in Matthew 6:33, “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
Sometimes I think that what I am seeking is God, but what I was actually seeking were the good things that come from God, but not God Himself.
When I first started serving the Lord my intent was to bless and lighten the burden of people who were already serving at The Mission. But I was unexpectedly blessed to encounter an overwhelming peace and joy that came along with serving Him.
I went away for nearly eight months, and on my return I was really looking forward to getting that peace and joy back. But as I resumed all the same actions I wasn’t finding that same peace and joy. There weren’t any conflicts. Everyone else serving at that time were amazing people. I just couldn’t make sense of what was different, until Jesus reminded me of my intentions from the first time. The first time I was seeking to bless His kingdom, and I was blessed in return. The second time I was seeking the blessings for “my kingdom” and I put His kingdom second to the blessings.
After an attitude adjustment and course correction I went on to have the greatest season of elation in our Father and greater joy in His love, grace, and mercy towards us than ever in my life. It was relatively easy; stop doing things for me, do everything for Him and all of His children.