I Quit!


What an amazing week it has been! We have finished week five, and well, we are left with a bunch of forgiven sinners forever desperately in need of Jesus. As the weeks have gone on, we have all been stretched beyond our limits and this has only helped us to pull more into Jesus. God has been bringing out my weaknesses like never before and I am so grateful because He has really been making 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 become clear to me. In my weaknesses, then I am strong THROUGH CHRIST!! I’m learning to depend more and more on Him, and He has been strengthening me through my weaknesses. I’m realizing how much I need Him, and how much I can do nothing for His Kingdom unless it is Him working through me. Oh, I am so grateful for this. God wants to use the tests, trials, and temptations that we go through. We can rejoice through these things because God uses them to sanctify us and point us to Him because we were never meant to live this life dependent on our own selves.
I am done trying to live this life through my own strength. I quit. There is no point in doing it on my own. It is so tiring. I want God to work through me. Anything that I do through my own strength has no eternal value. I want God to reveal my weaknesses so that I can be strong through and in Him. A strength that has no limits! Living for Jesus is so much more joyful despite the depression, peaceful despite the chaos, loving despite the hate, and gracious despite the judgment. The world offers us temporary, artificial “happiness” and “love,” but God gives us the real deal. He gives us the goodness that lasts forever and never fails. There is no point in trying to do anything on my own anymore. I want to fully live for Him and Him alone.

“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Throughout this week, we had the privilege of providing people with COVID relief food and cleaning supplies. It was such a joy to see how relieved and grateful these people were that they now have food to feed their families and daily supplies to care for their needs. 

Thank you for all of your support. The finances and prayer that you guys have generously supported me with has helped this happen. I was also able to just sit with people, get to know them, and talk to them about Jesus. I sat with Katrina and her sister Alejandra, in the image on the left, and I discovered that she is a believer! It is such a joy to meet another sister in Christ that lives in a different part of the world! We talked for awhile, most of the time being spent trying to understand each other because of the language barrier, but when we parted ways I felt like I knew her so well. I have the confidence in Christ that we will see each other again!

“How sweet are Your words to my taste,
Sweeter than honey to my mouth!
Through your precepts I
get understanding;
Therefore I hate every false way.”

Psalm 119:103-104

Oh this is my heart’s cry. I want to be so in love with Jesus that His words are SWEETER than honey to my taste. Above all, I want to just sit in His presence and meditate on Him. I want to just sit and worship Him. He is a Great and Mighty God and I am so amazed by how great His love is for us.

I have been so spoiled with all of the teachings that pastors have prepared and given to us! God has used them to speak to my heart, and He is doing a work in me. He is changing me, stripping things from my heart, and making me more like Him. This week, I learned a lot about stepping into faith. That in order to fully put my faith and trust in God, I must have a deep and intimate relationship with Him. I must know Him. How can I trust God if I do not know His character? The more I know Him, the more faith I can have in Him. Next week, I will be returning from Mexico. I am praying about the next steps that God has for my life and He has been putting Bible college on my heart in order to be further equipped for the work that He has called me to. I have no idea how this could ever work as there are two different Bible college options, the financial deposit is due in five days, and I am currently working on the application. I don’t have the resources to get there or any clue how this will all come together in such a short amount of time, but I am stepping out in faith to see how God will move and direct me.

Thank you so much for partnering with me in prayer and financially. By God’s grace, my tuition for the School of Missions is fully paid!! I cannot thank you guys enough. You are all such a tremendous blessing. I am so grateful to have such great friends and family in Christ. I love you guys SO…much and I am praying for you!!! If you have any specific prayer requests, or any thoughts, please reply back! I would love to hear from you guys and pray specifically for any needs that you have! 

Love,
Sarah Box <3

Praise Reports:
-My School of Missions tuition is fully paid off!!
-We have seen many people put their faith in Jesus and get saved!
-God has been greatly working in all of our hearts and sanctifying us to be more like Him.

Prayer Requests:
-Please pray for the next season of my life; that God would clearly reveal His direction, if I am to go to Bible College or do something different, and that I would trust in Him to provide.
-Please pray that in the last week at CSOM, the team and I would be strengthened in Christ and finish the school strong!
-Please pray for those that have received Christ in Mexico; that they would continue to grow In Jesus and that others would come to know Him through them.
-Please pray for me; that God’s Word would be sweeter than honey to my taste, that I would delight in Him above all else, and that I would grow more and more in love with Him every day.

Love in Abundance

Let the peoples praise You, O God;
Let all the peoples praise You.
Oh, let the nations be glad
and sing for joy!
For You shall judge the
people righteously,
And govern the nations on earth.”
Psalm 67:3-4

Week TRES of Mexico has been three times more amazing than I could have ever expected! Throughout this week, God has been teaching me more about His love. He has taught me this through new relationships with nationals, teachings, books, and through the little things in life. Through the quiet times, He has been teaching me to just sit in His presence, and be filled by Him. He has taught me more of His grace and loving-kindness. He has taught me that it is not about rules and what we “should” or “shouldn’t” do. In Him, I am now set free from the law and there is nothing that I can do in and of myself to earn the gift that He has given me. He loves me as I am, and He wants to teach me and discipline me so that I can be sanctified and become more like Him. He is patient, gentle, and gracious. He is a loving Father.

I have learned to do things out of love, not out of obligation. As I look back into the past, I can remember doing many things out of obligation. In any of these times, I can also see that I was trying to work out of the flesh. And as a result, there was no fruit from these things. However, I can also look back at the times that I did things out of love and was filled with the Spirit and much fruit came from this.

I do not want to tell people about Jesus out of obligation, but out of love. Don’t get me wrong, it is a command that we share the gospel with others and make disciples (Matthew 18-20), but I want to be filled with the Holy Spirit when I share with others. I want to sit in Jesus’ presence and be filled with His love and joy, and serving in the freedom that He has given.

This week, I have also learned that missions is not the ultimate goal of the church, worship is. The ultimate goal is for all nations to praise God and give glory to Him forever. Wherever I go, I want to share Jesus’ love with people because my heart is burdened that billions of people today do not know the great love of God and they do not have a relationship with Him. I want to just meditate on His word and keep the fire burning for Him. I don’t want to stop learning and sharing until He takes me home. Where passion for God is weak, zeal for missions will be weak.

Worship has to be the fuel and goal of missions.
A quote that Pastor Joel Garcia said to us in one of the classes really stuck with me,
“Fish swim, birds fly, and humans praise God.”
We can often ask ourselves “What am I good at?” or “What’s my purpose?”. The whole American mindset is to find what you are good at and become an expert in that. Imagine if we started living for our true purpose; to praise God. What if we fully believed that we had the single purpose of praising God, and we became an expert in that? What if we became experts in becoming a disciple and making disciples of all nations; studying His Word, spending time meditating on Him, interceding for people and the nations, singing hymns unto God, and being filled with the Holy Spirit constantly, moment by moment? Not just for an hour in the morning or once a week, but every day, moment by moment. Imagine how joyful, patient, peaceful, gentle, loving, satisfied, content, and gracious we would be. Imagine how different our lives would be. We don’t have to be in the sanctuary or at a church to worship God. We can worship Him at our workplaces, and throughout our normal, day by day lives.
If a fish stops swimming, it is not fulfilling its purpose. It will actually die. What happens when we don’t give our lives entirely to the Lord’s purposes? We will not experience the life that God has for us.

I am so amazed by how much the Lord is working in Mexico and I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be taught by all of the pastors and missionaries that have come. I can’t thank you enough for supporting and partnering with me. This trip has been life-changing and has really helped me to get a firm foundation in the Lord. He is teaching me things every day about Himself and He is stirring a passion for Himself in my heart. I have three more weeks here and I am so excited for everything more that the Lord is going to do here! I am praying for all of you!!

Praise Reports
-There has been continued unity in the team!
-We have been able to serve alongside the nationals & build relationships with them!

Prayer Requests
-Please pray for the unity of the team. Division in a team is a big way that satan tries to get in the way of God’s plans and mess everything up.
-Please pray that God would prepare the hearts of those that we will reach in the coming weeks.
-Please pray that those who have received Christ will grow strong in their faith and trust in the Lord.
-Please pray that God would continue to strengthen my faith, trust, and love for Him.

All of the girls that are at CSOM- and a new friend!
Erin Thiemann came to visit for a few days!!
Gabby, Dulce, & me on the way to an outreach! (Sienna, Lydia, and Acacia in the back).

Jesus Working Through Me

I can’t believe I have already been in Mexico for two weeks! Time is flying by and all of it has been so fruitful! This week, I’ve learned about the filling of the Holy Spirit and living to be used by God through teachings and books that the team and I have read. The more I sit in His presence and meditate on Him, the more I want to be fully saturated and live my life in every aspect for Him. 

It has been such a privilege to be able to be part of the Calvary School of Missions team and something that I will never take for granted. The teachings and books have been incredibly thought-provoking and heart wrenching. All of the people that we have been able to share the gospel with, serve, and make friendships with have been such a sweet blessing. My life has been filled with so much joy because I have been filled with so much Jesus. It is such a privilege to be the hands and feet of Jesus and see the weight lifted off of an individual who’s chosen to take the step of faith and receive Christ. Oh, to see their tears and hear their cries that represent new hope found in Christ.

God has done a work in my heart that has given me a desire to accomplish things that affect eternity, rather than material things that will only come and go like the wind. There are about 3 billion people in our world today that have never even heard of the name of Jesus, and possibly might not ever hear. I want to be a part of doing something to change this in our world. These people need to hear the good news of the gospel. They are waiting. These people are wanting. Many of them are starving and living horrible lives. They have no hope. They need Jesus. If no one goes, they have no hope. We need to reach them. I want to reach them. My heart’s cry is to reach these people that have never heard of God.

How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher? And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written:
“How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace,
Who bring glad tidings of good things!”

Romans 10:14-15
We are united as the Church body to bring the gospel to all nations!!

Thank you so much for all of your prayers and partnership with me. This School of Missions has been such a joy and has promoted so much growth and a greater love for Jesus in my life. I am so grateful and I am praying for you; that God will continue to deepen your faith and love for Him, that His desires would become your desires even more, and that you would be completely satisfied and content in Him. I love you all so much!

Praise Reports:

-All of our team is in good health!
-God is evidently working in the hearts of our team as well as the hearts of nationals in Mexico.
-It is such a blessing to be here!! It is such a privilege to be able to listen to all of the classes that we have been given and complete all of the books that we have been able to read!

Prayer Requests:

-Please pray that God, in His perfect timing, would reveal to me His calling on my life and where He wants me to go.
-Please pray for my heart, that every day I would grow deeper in my faith and my surrender to Him.
-Please pray for the unreached people that have never heard the name of Jesus; that God would send someone and that they would hear and receive the good news of the gospel.

The Call to Surrender

Arriving in Mexico
The Calvary School of Missions Team and I arrived safely in Rosarito, Mexico last week! Thank you so much for all of your prayers! I have had such a great time this past week and I have learned so much truth and amazing knowledge of the Bible. We have had so many teachings this past week and the more I hear, the more I want. It’s like when you eat that slice of cake; you might eat just one slice and move on, but the more cake you eat, the more you want. We have been “fed” so much spiritual food and it has just made me long for more and more! The more I learn, the more my spiritual appetite has become insatiable! I am so excited and grateful for everything else we will learn in the next 5 weeks. It has also been so fun settling in, meeting so many new people, and making friendships with them. We have had multiple outreaches so far including providing food for those who have lost their homes in an unforeseen fire and evangelizing to people at different parks. God is definitely doing a work down here; not only in the lives of the students of CSOM but also in many of the nationals here.

A Reminder from Jesus
During one of my morning devotions this first week, I found myself asking God to search within me and strip away any pride that I might have. Later that day, we were at a park street witnessing and I was in a group with a couple of other people. As the other two were taking the lead on talking to this Catholic guy, a Spanish-speaking woman came up to me and asked if I would like braids in my hair. I said no, but she continued asking, so I did the “easy” thing and said “no gracias, bonita, pero no dinero.” In this moment, the Holy Spirit instantly convicted me. I had money in my pocket, and I told this woman that I didn’t so that she would stop asking. I looked over at the guy that we were street witnessing to and I thought to myself “how am I supposed to be a disciple of Jesus when I have just sinned so easily?” worse yet when I sinned right in the middle of evangelizing. 

At that moment, God spoke to my heart and reminded me that it is not about me. God reminded me that of course, I am a sinner. That is why He sent his Son to die on the cross so that I might not perish but have eternal life. He knows how much of a frail, weak, sinful human being I am and yet he chose to save me and wants to use me to lead others to Him. Wow. I was so humbled and it reminded me that this was exactly what I prayed for this morning. God specifically answered my prayer and stripped that pride from my heart. 

“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works lest anyone should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.” 

Ephesians 2:8-10

Constant Surrender and Expectancy
Because of this moment, it gave me greater expectancy. God hears all of our prayers and answers them in ways we would never expect, but we need to expect Him to show up. I have also constantly been reminded to die to self and surrender. I cannot fully serve God if I am holding onto things in my life. As I sit and reflect on the past week, I am asking God for help to surrender and lay anything down that I hold higher than Him in my heart. If I want to follow God, then I will follow His plans for my life. I can’t pick and choose what I want and don’t want like a buffet. If I follow Him, I get the full course of whatever He leads me to, no matter how difficult the situation may be and I am confident that when I do this, He will get all of the glory and I will plant the seeds to lead others to know of His rich and never-ending love.

“For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Philippians 1:21

Thank you so much for all of your support in prayers and to everybody that has partnered with me financially. This has been such a blessing and it has only been a week! I am so blessed and excited for everything else that God has planned! I am still a few hundred dollars away from making my financial goal for the tuition of this school of missions. If you would like to partner with me financially, you can click this link here.

Praise Reports
We serve a loving God that is rich in love and abundant in grace!
I arrived safely with The Calvary School of Missions team in Mexico!
We have already been able to witness people accepting Christ into their hearts while being here!

Prayer Requests
Please pray for the nationals that accepted Christ.
Please pray for the health and safety of our team.
Please pray that God would strengthen my faith in Him more every day.